More for me and less for you.

So I haven't written for about four days now.  I figured I should start again mainly because writing helps me get things out.  It helps me get my feelings and emotions out.  Every post I write is somehow related back to me and my daily experiences.  While you might not know it, each post is personal.  I throw myself into my blog.  It is the only way I can truly express myself.  It is hard for me to be my full self around people.  It is hard for me to trust.  I am shy and timid.  I do not like to speak in public.  I read books.  I like to go to Bingo on Sundays with my mom.  I try to be creative.  Emphasis on the try.  Some of the things I have done were just straight up train wrecks.  My six year old niece is better at arts and crafts then I am.  But the one most important thing about me is that I do not give up.  If I hurt, I smile.  If I want to cry, I hold it in and laugh.  It is hard for me to let others in for I fear that one day they will leave.  While some people have showed me that they are here to stay, I have had more people then I thought leave me.  Everyone tells me that I am just a fun-loving, happy, vibrant person.  While that is true, there is a lot that people do not know.  Simply because I chose to not show it.  Some people know the real me.  The whole me.  But in order for that to happen one must prove they are there to stay.  So I guess what I am saying is that while I appear one way, there is another side that you have yet to meet.  My question to you is, are you willing to get to know me or will you just be like the others and leave?  The choice is yours.  Choose wisely.