Slightly delusional and not a care in the world.

It's 2:30 in the morning and I am the only one awake.  That means one thing and one thing only:  I am left alone with my thoughts.  If there is one thing I hate, it is that and solely that.  I am not sure about other people, but when I get left alone with them, it almost never ends well.  I tend to manipulate things people have said or done into something horrible that is a complete 180 of what they meant.  It is what I do.  A flaw you could say.  Well a big flaw.  I cannot help it.  I try to fight the feeling but it is still there pulling at me.  Insisting that I give in.  Minute by minute I try to fight it because I know what will happen if I cave into it.  Pain, sadness, guilt, regret.  All from manipulating one little thing.  One word.  One sentence.  Change it and everything else someone says changes.  It's a horrible flaw.  One I am trying to fix.  Every time I am alone and have to fight the urge and win, it is a little accomplishment.  A little pat on the back.  Every battle I win is just the encouragement I need to fight the next one.  Fight harder than I did the time before.  Cause you cannot give up on the fight.  Once you give up it is hard to get back up.  So I guess what I'm saying is, if you have a battle to fight, whether is be a flaw, psychological issue, or just a personal demon, do not give up.  It will take time, but eventually you will find your way.  I promise.  If at first you don't succeed, try again.