So many feelings.

I have spent the last hour writing and rewriting this post.  I have changed topics over and over again.  Yet nothing seems to work.  I write, delete, and repeat.  I do not want to get too personal nor do I want to lecture.  I just want to talk.  To express myself.  I know people read this.  They tell me they do.  Plus I have something that tells me how many people read this.  It is a little intimidating at times seeing how may have viewed my posts, knowing that they read and judge what I say.  So being too personal just feels weird since there are people I do not know viewing this.  Then again, this is my blog.  So can't I get as personal as I want?  On one hand I want to, on the other I feel it would turn out bad and I shouldn't.  I want to say things but I do not even know how to express them.  How do I talk about my personal life without people knowing I am talking about them?  Granted sometimes I feel it would be easier to communicate with people through here but then again I would just be torturing myself knowing that what I am saying is about them.  Eventually I will get personal.  I know I will.  But to gradually ease into that style of writing will be hard.  So yeah, this post is of me rambling.  I'm sorry you wasted time reading this, but then again thanks.  It means a lot knowing you did.  If you have any ideas of what I can talk about, text me.  Or call me.  Or comment.  Something. Please.