Advice for life.

Life doesn't rhyme.  Your first kiss isn't as important as your last.  Get caught in the rain.  Laugh out loud while you're alone.  Go on adventures and get lost.  Paint even though you're not an artist.  Really get to know people.  Accept that you will fail that one math test.  Get your heart broken and put the pieces together.  Put your hand up in class only to get the answer wrong.  Wonder about things.  Learn.  Remember that sunrises are free.  Let the little things that usually bore you entertain you.  Work bad hair days.  Get drunk and tell people how you really feel at 4 a.m.  Try out for the team.  Have feelings for your best friend.  Believe that everything happens for a reason.  Look at the stars and finally realize just how small you are.  Travel for a year and look at the world differently when you come back.  Eat that red velvet cupcake.  never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted.  Forgive and forget.  Don't hold anything back.  Live for the music and the moments.  Because nobody lives forever, and life is really, really short.

Happiness consumes the soul.

Do you ever have a moment in your life where you are so happy nothing could ruin it?  No person, grade, or incident could possibly bring you down?  You are in a state of euphoria and no one can touch you?  Well I am pleased to say that this is currently where I am in my life right now.  So many things have happened to me in the past few months that I truly thought it would be a long time before I was happy.  But slowly I was able to get my life together, all on my own.  Some days I struggled, but knowing that one day everything would be good made me want to never give up.  My life is nowhere near perfect, but perfect is not what I was aiming for.  I wanted happiness, clarity, and above all, to feel free.  I can successfully say I have achieved that.  I believe that this past weekend was what allowed me to realize this.  I saw friends, made friends, and had a great time.  I did not care about anything except me.  I made some agreements this weekend that I hope happen.  I made friends that I hope to hang out more with. But the best was that I made myself my first priority and that is what truly matters.  So if you feel down now, let me be the first to tell you that it will get better.  It will happen when you least expect it.  One day you will wake up and feel different.  You will be smiling for no reason.  It is in that moment right there that you are free.  Your life is amazing.  So give it time.  If you ever feel like you cannot handle it just remember that it will be better.  Focus on that like I did and before you know it you will be happier then you could have ever dreamed.

Also another reason I am so happy is because I acquired a free case of Capri Sun.  Which by the way is literally the best thing ever.  Well next to potatoes, chocolate, men, and shoes that is.

You are.

You know that feeling?
When you're just waiting.
Waiting to get home, into your room,
close the door, fall into bed,
and just let everything out that you kept in all day.
That feeling of both relief and desperation.
Nothing is wrong.
But nothing is right either.
And you're tired.
Tired of everything, tired of nothing.
And you just want someone to
be there and tell you it's okay.
But no one's going to be there.
And you know you have to be strong
for yourself, because no one can fix you.
But you're tired of waiting.
Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else.
Tired of being strong.
And for once, you just want it to be easy.
To be simple. To be helped. To be saved.
But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping.
And you're still wishing.
And you're still staying strong and fighting,
with tears in your eyes.
You're fighting.